01
At the end of November 2019, Bu Nan was still watching a football game with his new male partner in West Lafayette, USA. It was cold and the two were snuggling together.
The players on the field had just scored a new score. At this time, the agent Xu Dongzhi got up and handed the muted mobile phone to Bu Nan. She read the email amid the cheers of the audience, turned around and said "sorry" to the people around her.
They booked air tickets to return home that night. For nearly 20 hours of flight time, Bu Nan didn't say a word, half lying in his seat and barely changing his posture. Sunglasses covered most of her face, and Xu Dongzhi couldn't guess what kind of expression she had.
It was a dark night outside the window, and the red dots of the plane's wings flashed in the thick black, and she returned to her homeland with endless worries.
Three days later, the funeral was held in Jiuxi.
The weather was not good that day, it had been raining for a long time, and the coldness came out of the soil. Bu Nan held a black umbrella and put down a bunch of magnolia flowers with a blank face.
She viciously told Bai Jianyun a long time ago that their last meeting would be at his funeral.
Who knows what a prophecy is.
02
On December 21, 2012, on the day of the end of the world predicted by the Maya, the sun rarely appeared in Jiuxi. A director came to Nanze Academy of Arts to select a new season's advertising model for the clothing brand KQ. The brand's new director had been under the care of Bai's. It happened that Bai Jianyun was too bored at home, so he was invited to see it.
Beautiful faces passed by in front of the camera, but the people behind the monitor did not respond. Bai Jianyun tilted his head to look at the audition director, who smiled reluctantly at him, then frowned and crossed everyone's name. It took nearly evening, and none of them qualified. The two girls named "Bu Nan" and "Ji Dishu" did not show up. The director was impatient and the interview ended.
Bai Jianyun went downstairs from the side stairs, but was enveloped in smoke on the 4th floor. The phoenix flowers bloomed brilliantly outside the window, and the golden sunset cast on the snow-white walls, illuminating the dim stairwell. Someone was smoking a cigarette with his head down, half of his face hidden in his hair, the audition badge at her feet.
Bu Nan.
"The interview is over." Bai Jianyun said while standing on the stairs.
Hearing the voice, Bu Nan raised his head and saw Bai Jianyun standing in the golden sunlight. Even in his tweed coat and turtleneck, he still looked thin. He was obviously a boy of the same age, but his eyes were lifeless, and his clear skin made him look like a fragile glass statue. Bo Nan paused, and pinched the cigarette with a low wrist.
"Who did you choose in the end?" She fanned the smoke around her with her hands.
"No one is qualified, you should try it."
Bu Nan is like a little beast stepped on by someone's wound. His hair is obviously raised in a provocative way, and there is a long red scratch on his right cheekbone to his chin: "How do you go for an interview with such a face?"
"As a model, isn't temperament more important than appearance?" Bai Jianyun passed by her, saw her eyes, and stopped again, "Do you... know Ji Cishu? She doesn't have any. Come?"
"She scratched my face, how could I make her feel better?" Bu Nan licked the corners of his mouth, and blood began to ooze from the cracked area. "I'll probably sew the wound in the hospital now."
"Did you guys fight?" Bai Jianyun gave her one more look, "Your wound also needs to be treated."
"What does it have to do with you?" Bu Nan leaned against the wall, "I advise you to go home quickly, so as not to get my bad luck."
Bai Jianyun didn't mind the thorns in her words, and replied gently: "I am the cousin of the dictionary, and I am half an elder. She got into trouble at school, and I should help her deal with the aftermath."
Bu Nan stared at him without speaking.
He sighed slightly and stretched out his hand to pull her up: "You shouldn't want scars on your face, right?"
His fingers are white and slender, and the back of his hand has fine needle eyes, which can almost be connected to form a treasure map.
Bu Nan is no stranger to Bai Jianyun. The orphanage she grew up in was sponsored by the Bai family. On New Year's Eve every year, the children not only sit around and eat dumplings, but also make dumplings for Bai Jianyun before the bell rings. Ten thousand thousand paper cranes.
He has been in poor health since he was a child. A large part of the reason why his father funded the orphanage was to do good deeds to keep his son away from his illness. The middle-aged man looked shrewd and indifferent, but he had such absurd thoughts because of his own child, which pitied the hearts of parents all over the world.
On the New Year's Eve when Bu Nan was fourteen years old, Bai Jianyun visited the orphanage once. He played the cello in the warm hall for everyone to listen to. The sound of the piano was as low as a whisper, creating a different evening. It was difficult for him to choose the more cheerful Concerto in C Major. In fact, most of the children couldn't understand it. They just watched curiously as his fingers danced on the strings.
Bai Jianyun only pulled a section, but it took a lot of physical strength for ten minutes. He bowed in a gentlemanly thanks to the thunderous applause, and Heishun's hair was already wet. Standing at the back of the crowd, Bu Nan felt that he was like the magnolia flower growing in the backyard, beautiful and fragile.
Bu Nan left with Bai Jianyun that day. His driver parked the Maybach downstairs in the teaching building. The heating in the car was sufficient. Bu Nan seemed to have entered summer in an instant. Half an hour later, the driver parked the car in a courtyard in the west of the city. This is the other hospital of the top plastic surgeon, and people who consult him on weekdays have to wait at least three months. And Bai Jianyun just sent a text message, and Bu Nan could enjoy the doctor's private consultation.
In the winter, the branches are bare, and the dry branches open above Bu Nan's head. She stood outside the car, thinking about it all the way, but only came up with this sentence: "Thank you."
Bai Jianyun covered her knees with a blanket and smiled lightly at her: "Goodbye."
03
Bu Nan has a pair of steep eyes, thin cheeks, and three white pupils, looking arrogant and bad-tempered. There are often people who are subconsciously hostile because of her appearance, and often people remember her because of those eyes.
The first time she and Ji Dishu met, they were wrong. Adolescent girls didn't agree with everything and wanted to compare everything. Nan Ze's two overlord flowers are always compared together, and finally the grievances erupted before the interview that day.
Some people chatted outside the physical classroom, saying that this year's ready-to-wear styles of this brand are all wild, and Bu Nan is very likely to be selected. Ji Dishu looked at his new manicure, and sneered: "Of course people who don't have a family are wild."
It happened that Bu Nan came up the stairs, and in the silence, she stepped on the steps and approached step by step: "Do you say it again?"
Mars touched hot oil, and the two had a fight. One was scratched in the face, and the other broke his forehead. In Bu Nan's eyes, nothing is more important than relieving hatred, and she will always retaliate.
I thought that I would be punished severely after this time, but the Academic Affairs Office just asked Bu Nan to write a review, and then went to the library to do voluntary labor. The matter was turned over, and even the season's dictionaries did not come to trouble.
Bu Nan rubbed the scar that was scabbing, and thought of Bai Jianyun again. Looking at such a fragile person, he can settle so many things.
During her recuperation, she couldn't do the part-time jobs that required her to be photographed, but fortunately, the salary of the bowl cleaner was paid on a daily basis. Also, because Christmas and New Year's Day were approaching, and the salary was rising, she plunged into the back kitchen of the restaurant to wash the greasy dishes.
The catering industry was extremely busy on Christmas day, but the cook didn't take care of his hands, standing behind Bu Nan while the back kitchen was crowded. Bu Nan was not polite, smashed the plate on top of his head on the spot, and slammed his knee into his crotch. The store manager came in a hurry, angrily scolding the two for causing trouble when they were so busy.
Bu Nan took off his gloves and smashed them on the store manager's face. He pointed at the camera blankly: "Pay double wages, or I'll call the police."
So she got paid and got out of the way, wrapped in a cotton coat and walked aimlessly in the cold wind. Big red decorative lights from the treetops run through the long street, and cars pass by singing Merry Christmas. Young couples can always celebrate all festivals as Valentine's Day, hugging each other and laughing together, much like the scenes in the Korean dramas she watched in her childhood. In the series, Christmas is a very important day, and the hero and heroine always stay together.
Bu Nan passed by Jiexin Park and saw Maybach who was parked downstairs in the teaching building that day, and Bai Jianyun who was sitting on a bench not far away. The expensive fur protects his thin body, but it is still noble and tall. As if her heart had been beaten by a drumstick, she went to the cafe to buy two cups of hot cocoa, and when she passed by, Bai Jianyun was already standing under a pine tree.
"I didn't expect it to snow at Christmas." Bu Nan stood beside him and pretended to pass the hot drink casually, "It's so cold, why are you still out?"
"It's you? Coincidentally, we meet again." Bai Jianyun held hot cocoa to warm his hands, his eyes fell on the pine tree in front of him, "I came to see an old friend."
Bu Nan looked left and right, but didn't notice anything special about this not sturdy pine tree. Bai Jianyun gently brushed off Shen Xue with a long velvet glove, turned her head to look into her doubtful eyes, and suddenly laughed: "When I was six years old, my mother planted this tree with me, and there were no trees here at that time. Build a park. She told me, let's plant this tree and we'll grow with it later."
Bai Jianyun didn't say any more, but Bu Nan already knew the second half. When Bai Jianyun was eight years old, Mrs. Bai died. He was clearly the one who was cursed by the disease. He always planned to sleep forever, but he had to witness the death of his relatives. It was also from that year that she would fold a thousand paper cranes for him every New Year's Eve at the orphanage.
Looking at Bai Jianyun's profile illuminated by the lights, she could almost imagine how lonely the frail little boy was when he planted a tree in the spring.
"Then I'm also its friend now," Bu Nan sniffed, stepped forward and shook hands with Songzhi in a serious manner, "Hello, my name is Bu Nan, and I hope you will grow up with me in the future!"
Bai Jianyun looked at her from the side, and she was a little embarrassed, so she said bravely, "Since today is Christmas, can I invite you to dinner? Just treat it as my thank you gift."
"It seems that someone is in a good mood today." Bai Jianyun neither agreed nor refused, the tip of his nose was blown red by the cold wind, making him look like he finally had some color.
"Of course, I made a lot of money today. In these days, it's too pitiful to eat alone." Bu Nan pretended to be pitiful for the first time, "so take pity on me."
Facing those sly eyes, Bai Jianyun laughed. The driver drove the car over, and he finally nodded: "My pleasure."
04
The place to eat is in the sky restaurant on the 28th floor of Yunmei Building. Behind the floor-to-ceiling windows is the dimly lit night view of Jiuxi. The bridge crossed the river like a lying giant, and musicians in solid-colored long dresses played under the flowers.
Bu Nan stood on the terrace, with the orange veins spreading out from the city at his feet. She closed her eyes and opened her arms, and the cold wind blew her forehead. At that moment, she suddenly felt that she owned the whole world. Eating a meal here almost cost her half a month's part-time fee, but she didn't regret it at all, and she was even glad that Bai Jianyun came with her, and her whole world could be divided into half of him.
The store is very quiet, with the accompaniment of the quiet and melodious violin music, the whispers of people can hardly be heard. The waiter helped her open the chair, and Bai Jianyun handed her the menu. Bu Nan didn't know the difference between Australian grain-fed M8 and M9, nor did he understand the difference between Caribbean lobster and Australian green dragon, so he had to take a look at the menu.
Bai Jianyun coughed lightly at the right time, she raised her head, only to see his eyes were very gentle under the candlelight: "We have already ordered crab salad, do you want to replace the fine-scale silver cod?"
Finally, under the implicit guidance of Bai Jianyun, Bu Nan replaced the repeated appetizers and side dishes, and ordered dessert for himself, an almond nougat parfait.
"Hello, how cooked should you two steaks be?"
Bu Nan thought for a while: "It's half cooked."
The waiter smiled, but his voice was still very gentle: "Sorry, miss, there are only odd cooked ones."
In the silence, I suddenly heard Bai Jianyun speak, his voice was slow and slow, with the usual cold modesty: "I think the chef will definitely take care of guests with different needs. Like her, I also need to It's half cooked, can I trouble you to let me know?"
The young Bu Nan is young and vigorous, with little experience, he is not afraid of anything, but he also knows the word "embarrassment". When the waiter walked away, she whispered, "Did I embarrass you?"
The candlelight flickered, Bai Jianyun looked at her bright eyes and shook his head with a chuckle: "No, they didn't think about it carefully."
When the meal was over, the manager waited at the door with the chef, and apologized earnestly: "I didn't have a good reception today, I hope it didn't affect the interest of the two of you. If you don't mind, please invite the two of you to visit another day, and it will definitely improve. our service."
It seemed that he was apologizing to the two people in his words, but he had been carefully observing Bai Jianyun's indifferent face. But the latter didn't mean to speak. Bu Nan felt that if this continued, the store manager would not be able to sleep well for a week, so he said, "Okay, we will come again next time."
Bai Jianyun looked down at her, and the smile on his lips loomed: "Okay."
The manager and chef finally breathed a sigh of relief. Bu Nan thought it was funny, she thought for a while, then suddenly stopped and told Bai Jianyun a small lie: "Actually...today is my birthday."
Bai Jianyun looked a little regretful: "Did I miss the opportunity to give gifts?"
"Of course not." Bu Nan waved to the waiter who came to receive them, and took out his mobile phone from his satchel. "Would you like to take a photo? It's my eighteenth birthday present."
In this way, they have the only photo together.
Landing from the height of the twenty-eighth floor to the ground is like returning to reality from a dream. When the elevator went down, she was still looking at the people in the photo. Bai Jianyun handed a business card to her: "The audition last time is not over yet, I hope you don't let yourself regret it."
Bu Nan took the business card in a daze, and Bai Jianyun smiled gently: "A gift for eighteen should be more formal."
He was so generous and had a different gift every time we met.
When the elevator reached the first floor and the prompt sounded, Bu Nan heard Bai Jianyun's hesitant voice: "I have an unkind request, can I... touch your eyes?"
He touched the inner corner of his eye with his warm and soft fingertips, and traced the end of his eye in a vain way. He seemed to hold his breath. Bu Nan closed his eyes and heard him say again, "Thank you."
Later, she learned that every Christmas is the anniversary of Mrs. Bai's death, and she happened to have a pair of eyes similar to those of her old friend.
05
Asians' faces undulate smoothly, and the facial folds do not have an advantage, so Bu Nan is ready to find another way. She sat in the barbershop for eight hours, dyeing her black hair red like a burning flame.
She went to audition with such dazzling red hair, and it was no surprise that she got everyone's attention. KQ mainly focuses on girls and fairies. In the past, brand models were elusive and elusive fairies. The shooting theme of this spring new product is the children of the forest, and Bu Nan contributed a completely different interpretation. She jumped dexterously in the shadow of flowers and green leaves, bit a budding flower, sucked the spring in the mountains, her fiery red hair was like a new sun, but her eyes were cold and pitiful, like a god born in the forest, wild and free .
In the end, of course, she won the advertisement spot. She couldn't contain her excitement and called Bai Jianyun as soon as she walked out of the building. The call was quickly connected, and Bai Jianyun blessed her on the other end of the phone. After a while, she asked, "Where do you sleep at night? You can't go back to the dormitory now. If you don't mind, I'll send someone to pick you up."
The driver came to pick her up and drove to the wetland villa area in the west of the city. She lowered the car window, and the air was fresh and cold, enough to keep her head clear. She saw Bai Jianyun standing in the yard. He was dressed in a heavy blanket, standing handsomely and quietly, waiting for her.
At that moment, Bu Nan hoped that he was the bright starry night above his head, or the bright moonlight, who could accompany him forever.
She ran over, and Bai Jianyun was staggered by her bump, but he still reached out to catch her: "Although I already said it once, I still want to bless you, Bu Nan."
In the day-to-day medical treatment, it is not only Bai Jianyun who loses patience, but also Mr. Bai. The fourteen-year-old New Year was the last time Bai Jianyun spent with his father. Since then, he has had other concerns in his heart, such as Wenxiang Nephrite and a healthy child. Bai Jianyun ignored this, but the time he spent reading in the study increased day by day, and the number of times the doctor was called for consultation became less and less.
There are only Bai Jianyun, the nanny and the driver at home, and now there is a fourth uninvited guest, Bu Nan.
Bai Jianyun's study is almost an entire floor on the third floor. Bu Nan has never seen so many books, and he has never seen a reading man who is better-looking than Bai Jianyun. So when she was eighteen years old, she often sneaked into the Maybach at the school gate after school, stayed in the west of the city all afternoon, and came back before the dormitory door. She jumped like a bird when she got out of the car.
That evening when Jiuxi was cold, the weather was extremely gloomy. She was reading "The Appreciation of Famous Western Paintings", and the book talked about Fragonard's "The Swing" as a masterpiece of the Rococo era. She didn't understand the difference between Baroque and Rococo, and couldn't see the greatness of this painting, so she had to squat at Bai Jianyun's feet and harass him who was reading poetry.
"Why is this painting so powerful?"
"It is depicted from a voyeuristic perspective, and the picture itself tells a story of infatuation. The painter found a balance between eroticism and eroticism, and this frivolity and sweetness are the characteristics of Rococo culture."
Bu Nan understood only a little, but his attention was taken away by the poetry collection in his hand: "Are you watching Shakespeare?"
Bai Jianyun rarely showed an expression of admiration: "Do you have a favorite verse?"
"I only know that the eighteenth song is very famous," Bu Nan grimaced. "Someone once copied it into a love letter and sent it to me."
Large flakes of snow fell, and only the sound of firewood burning in the fireplace was heard in the house. Bu Nan was sitting at the desk copying poems, and Bai Jianyun fell asleep quietly under the blanket of blankets. She copied two strokes and looked up at his profile, her heart was very peaceful.
There is no fragrance that will not wither or be destroyed, but your long summer will never wither.
As long as there are humans, or humans with eyes, this poem will live on and give you life.
06
After the New Year this year, Bu Nan will follow the team to shoot outside. Before leaving, she watched "Harry Potter" with Bai Jianyun at home. In the seventh installment, Hermione and Harry cuddle each other in a desperate situation, and O Children, a hopeless but hopeless song, plays in the background.
In the movie, Hermione and Harry were dancing. Offscreen, Bo Nan put her index finger on Bai Jianyun's palm, spinning lightly and aimlessly. This was the happiest night in her 18-year life.
Under the dizziness, Bu Nan fell into Bai Jianyun's arms. She heard her voice of implicit anticipation and excitement: "I'm going to shoot in other provinces. This is the first time I've walked out of this city."
Bai Jianyun looked down at her, and gently pulled her messy hair back behind her ears: "You will go to farther and better places in the future."
He was right. After shooting that commercial, KQ announced that he had signed Bu Nan as a ready-to-wear model for the new season, and KQ had never signed an unqualified newcomer before. As soon as the news came out, there was an uproar in public opinion. It didn't take long for Bu Nan, as a newly signed model, to fly to Milan for KQ's next season's ready-to-wear show.
Her first show was amazing enough. The girl was like the goddess Nymph in Greek mythology, her slender waist was clinging to the leaves of the laurel tree, and the broken gold was sprinkled into the fluffy red hair. Her eyelids were stuck with gold foil, walking on the clouds and water. The chief designer took the models to the curtain call, and Bu Nan's oriental face attracted countless flashes. This show made her name so beautiful in fashion week.
By the end of the night, it was early spring in Milan. She stood under a tree with green shoots and called Bai Jianyun.
She hadn't seen him for three months, and she missed Bai Jianyun very much.
After three calls, Bai Jianyun answered the call, and his voice was full of tiredness. Bu Nan remembered that they were separated by seven time zones. It was still night in Milan, and it was not yet dawn in the country.
"Have you seen the picture I sent you?" Bu Nan looked up at the ancient city of Milan in the dark, and couldn't help but want to share his joy with him, "Milan is very beautiful."
"Well, I saw it."
There was a beeping sound of the instrument on the other end of the phone, and Bu Nan felt that the boiling blood in his body had cooled down: "Are you in the hospital?"
"I'm at home." Bai Jianyun seemed to have guessed her unease, "Don't worry."
Bu Nan breathed a sigh of relief, and then complained, "This is the first catwalk in my life, but you can't see it with your own eyes."
"Can I watch the replay? I'll make up for every game."
"As compensation, will you accompany me to a place?"
The other side was silent for a long time, and finally agreed: "Okay."
"Aren't you asking where to go?"
"It's fine to go anywhere."
Hanging up the phone, Bu Nan's palms were all sweaty.
She took the cigarette case out of her pocket and tried several times, but the rolling stones of the lighter failed to light the cigarette.
At this moment, a hand handed fire beside him. Bu Nan turned his head, and the young man with an oriental face winked at her: "Beauty, if you don't light it again, the fire will be extinguished soon."
This is the first meeting between Bu Nan and Xu Dongzhi. He is still a novice agent. After seeing Bu Nan's stunning appearance, he did not hesitate to praise him.
"You will definitely be popular in the future." Xu Dongzhi looked like a magic stick in the smog, "At that time, I will regret not being able to sign you today."
"If one day I really, really want to be popular, I will come back to contact you." Bu Nan smiled, took a few puffs and put out the cigarette, "I'm leaving, thank you for your fire."
"Work is over, why don't you take a vacation to relax?" Xu Dongzhi asked.
"Of course." Bu Nan was in a good mood, "I'm going on a trip with the person I like."
"Sounds too happy." Xu Dongzhi clapped his hands, "Have you decided where to go?"
Bu Nan pointed to the horizon and laughed: "The end of the world."
07
After working until the summer of 2013, Bu Nan did not go back.
She received her first income, bought gifts to go to the orphanage, and bought two more plane tickets to Ushuaia.
The southern hemisphere is now in winter, not to mention that they are going to the end of the world. Before she left, she regretted it countless times, worried that Bai Jianyun's body would not be able to bear it, but he always repeated the sentence with a smile: "I don't like being a contract breaker."
They set off on the summer solstice and took the green train when they arrived. The cold air was covered with fine snow, and the Tianya Haijiao slowly drove into the green forest. The locomotive spewed thick white steam, and the snow-capped mountains in the distance seemed to be within reach. They sat side by side, and Bo Nan pointed to a museum and asked, "Do you want to go here?"
He nodded: "It's fine to go anywhere."
Bu Nan squeezed his hand tightly, he was thinner, and his phalanges were distinct.
In 1896, the prisoner endured a harsh and long winter and was exiled to Ushuaia. Today the prison has been transformed into a museum, which is visited by tourists from all over the world. When Bu Nan went to buy tickets, someone accosted her with her outstanding appearance, and she made a gesture of refusal. Turning his head again, Bai Jianyun turned his back to her and was looking at the sign erected at the entrance of the museum: This is the end of the world, and everything starts from here. It was a gray and cloudy day, and the winter wind was bitter, and he was so thin that he seemed to disappear at any moment.
She felt her heart pounding suddenly, and suddenly shouted at him, "Bai Jianyun!"
The people around were startled and looked back at the two men and women who were clearly not far apart. Bai Jianyun laughed and replied loudly, "I'm here!"
That anxiety was fulfilled that night, and Bai Jianyun started a fever. She went downstairs in a windbreaker to buy medicine. The Chinese owner of Caihong Restaurant gave her some regular antipyretic medicine, and she fed Bai Jianyun with hot water.
"I'm fine, I'll be fine tomorrow." Bai Jianyun put his finger on her face, "Don't cry."
Bu Nan wiped his face indiscriminately: "Let's go back tomorrow."
"I haven't gone to the port yet." Bai Jianyun rejected her, "Didn't you always want to go? Go back after reading it tomorrow, I promised you."
However, Bai Jianyun still had a fever the next day, his lips were pale, and he woke up while sleeping under the quilt. Bu Nan called a local doctor to see him and gave him some medicine. When Bai Jianyun woke up in the middle of the night, Bu Nan heard him sigh in a daze.
"What's wrong?" Bu Nan raised his head.
Only a floor lamp was lit, making his eyes bright and warm. He looked at Bu Nan for a while before opening his mouth: "I seem to have screwed up this trip."
On the third day, Bai Jianyun's spirit improved, and they finally went to the port of Ushuaia. They were lucky enough to grab a last-minute ticket, and the ship traveled along the Beagle Channel on the dividing line between the Atlantic and the Pacific. The tower pillars are red and white, standing at the end of the whole world, let the cold wind blow, let the waves beat and splash, let the world leave everything unhappy.
"The end of the word." Bu Nan remembered the sentence he saw at the entrance of the museum.
Bai Jianyun stood beside her, she wrapped the scarf for him again, and his plain white face almost melted into the ice and snow. He grabbed her hand and the kiss fell at that moment.
His lips were dry and warm, and Bu Nan closed his eyes to meet him.
Although the beginning of the word, she murmured in her heart.
08
Bai Jianyun held on until the moment the plane landed, and the medical staff separated Bu Nan. Under the blocking of Ji Dishu, Bu Nan could only watch the driver take Bai Jianyun to the hospital. She looked at Ji's dictionary, which she hadn't seen for a long time, and her words were calm: "Get out of the way."
Ji Dishu obviously didn't want to talk nonsense with her: "Bu Nan, don't pester him, you are hurting him."
Bu Nan's face turned cold, but Ji Dishu didn't give her a chance to refute, and continued: "Maybe you want to scold me and think I don't understand anything, but I still have to say that you are consuming his body."
"His body really can't be so tossed. He has been different from others since he was a child. Others can run and jump, but he can't." Ji Dishu pointed to the direction that Bai Jianyun had just left, "Including this time, you let him go out. , he left with you immediately. But did you know that he was still in the hospital a few days ago, and the doctor told him that he couldn't bear the cold at all, and you turned around and pulled him to the extreme circle. "
Bu Nan didn't speak, she never thought that Bai Jianyun's body was so bad.
He is a fragile glass prince, no one knows how long he will live, every day is a gift from God. She panicked in her heart, but she was still stubborn: "If it's true, I want to hear him say this to me in person."
Ji Dishu laughed in anger, feeling that she was hopeless: "You know he won't."
Bu Nan went to the Central Park. She waited under the pine tree until it was dark, and finally pinched off a pine branch, brought it back to the dormitory and put it in a glass bottle, which could be seen as soon as she looked up.
After a week off, she went to work again. The modeling industry is to eat youth food, and every second of youth is extremely precious. Even in class, she didn't dare to mute, for fear of missing Bai Jianyun's call.
On the evening of her real birthday, she finally received a call from Bai Jianyun. The mirror in the body room reflected a champagne-colored evening. Bu Nan sat down against the mirror, his heart sinking into the icy sea water little by little.
Bai Jianyun said, "Bu Nan, you will meet more people in the future, and you will understand that everything you meet now is only a small part of the world."
With her fingernails pinched into her palm, she held her breath: "Did Ji Dishu tell you something?"
"You clearly know that this has nothing to do with others." Bai Jianyun sighed.
"But this small part is all I have."
"Everything you have now is less than one percent of the world, and you will have a wider world." Bai Jianyun's tone stiffened, "Don't meet again."
"What was the kiss before that?" Bu Nan realized that he was crying and choked, "Is it sympathy?"
After a long time, there was a voice from the other end of the phone: "Sorry."
Unwilling, she went to the west of the city again, climbed the fence and crossed the large grass, and finally came to Bai Jianyun's window. She stood downstairs and shouted, "Bai Jianyun, today is my birthday, my real birthday, can you wish me a happy birthday?"
There was no answer, only the familiar nanny and driver stood inside the house, sighing and shaking their heads.
She sat cross-legged on the grass and sang Happy Birthday to herself, crying and laughing like a crazy person. Finally, a cello ensemble came from upstairs, and the sound of the piano was whimpering in a deep voice, like weeping, but it was so gentle.
Happy birthday to you, happiness to you, health to you.
09
"Xu Dongzhi, if you have the ability to make me one of the top 100 models in the world within five years, then you can be my agent now."
Xu Dongzhi did not break his promise. Under his plan, when autumn came, Bu Nan was promoted to the spokesperson of KQ. In the spring and summer fashion week that followed, Bu Nan walked the opening and closing of Haute Couture as a new model. She was 20 years old that year.
This year, Bai Jianyun tried a new type of surgery, and Jiuxi added a book cafe. After the surgery was successful, he personally selected the books in the store. The TV in the store is always on the fashion show, and it is always the ones with model Bu Nan. Bu Nan is not only the pride of Nanze Academy of Arts, but also the most famous person in Jiuxi, a small southern town. Customers don't think anything is wrong.
The acting store manager told him that there would be more benefits in changing the way of business. He raised the store manager's pay, not agreeing to the proposal.
Later, Bu Nan's catwalks became more and more, and sometimes a week's show could be played without repetition. He sat in front of the screen and looked at those flying eyes, sincerely happy for her. The first time he saw Bo Nan, he knew that she was going to shine.
In 2015, when Bu Nan was 21 years old, she appeared on the cover of VOGUE magazine for the first time. At this time, she was no longer limited to the fairy girl and began to try more feminine styles.
On the cover of this time, she has short smoky gray hair, holds a scepter, and the ends of her eyes are slightly upturned, like the arrival of a queen. The cover is introduced in bronzing fonts: Prosperous Red Lotus - Bu Nan.
The store manager put the magazine in a place where he could see it when he entered the store. Some middle school students who liked Bu Nan exclaimed, "This magazine is super hard to buy! Manager, can I resell it to me for three times the price?"
The store manager peeked at Bai Jianyun, who occasionally came to the store. He was flipping through the book with his head down. The store manager had no choice but to explain to the middle school students: "All the magazines in the store are not for sale, but if you like Bu Nan, other books I can give you a 20% discount."
Bu Nan had his first boyfriend at the age of twenty-two, a pioneering artist from New York. The artist showed his love in a bold and high-profile manner. He took a high-value ruby at auction and told the media that it was specially given to him as a red lotus.
With Bu Nan holding his arm, facing the media's camera, she can already smile gracefully. She stepped on black pointed-toed shoes, matched with overalls, raised her eyebrows slightly, and had bright lipstick. It was obviously gossip news, but because of this outfit, she was on the list of the best outfits.
When Bai Jianyun saw the news in the magazine, his activities were restricted to his home again. The sun was shining brightly in New York, and it was raining at night in Jiuxi, and he cut it out amid the sound of rain. In addition to being depressed, he was still happy for Bu Nan.
As he told Bu Nan before, he hoped that she would meet that better person, someone who could accompany her anywhere, surf at the beach, climb snow-capped mountains, and watch the storm surge in the polar circle; he hoped that Bu Nan would be by his side The person who is healthy and sunny, so that she does not need to be afraid.
These are all he can't give, but he still hopes she can enjoy it.
At the age of 23, Bu Nan's ranking entered the top ten of the supermodel list. She opened her own personal ins, and the first message she sent was a selfie in the Arctic Circle. In just 20 minutes, the number of likes exceeded 300,000.
Bai Jianyun was among the crowd of likes. There were countless people from different coordinates all over the world. Bu Nan would not know that among the more than 300,000 likes, one was from a small town in the south of the motherland. After liking, he clicked on her photo again. She lost some weight again, although insisting on exercising made her not look thin, she still couldn't hide the sunken eye sockets.
Bai Jianyun stared at the ceiling of the hospital, remembering that they once went to Ushuaia together, the extreme north and the extreme south, the farthest distance between the two ends of the earth.
In 2018, Bu Nan has passed through the haute couture shows of the six major blue blood brands, and the five magazines with high gold content have also been unlocked. On her twenty-fourth birthday, she was featured on the opening cover of VOGUE, a nod to top supermodels.
The magazine conducted an exclusive interview with her. In the interview, she said that she is planning to study afterward, and no matter what kind of job she is engaged in, she will never stop studying.
The topic inevitably leads to gossip. The reporter asked Bu Nan if the new tattoo on his arm was a lotus flower. Because since her debut, her name has been closely associated with this flower.
Bu Nan explained that the name of this flower is magnolia and it only grows in her home country.
The reporter asked again, "Does this flower have any special meaning?"
Bu Nan smiled: "This is my exclusive secret."
She has had too many rumored boyfriends in recent years, and writers, nobles, and athletes have all fallen under her pomegranate skirt, so everyone speculated that this tattoo is related to feelings.
Bai Jianyun on the other side of the world was equally puzzled, but he just cut out the interview as usual, treating it as an experience Bu Nan did not want to talk about.
When Bu Nan was twenty-five years old, she began to reduce her workload and even made a cameo role as a goddess in a magic movie.
Bai Jianyun planned to wait for the movie to be released to see what the girl was like back then.
But he failed to do so.
On the third day after the film was completed, Bai Jianyun slept forever in the heavy rain in Jiuxi.
10
Bu Nan was standing in front of the Chengxi villa. After Bai Jianyun died, the driver and the nanny had other jobs and had already left. But she no longer has to worry about not being able to get in. She has a key in her hand, which Ji Dishu handed her after the funeral.
"Let's take a look before you leave." Ji Dishu said so.
So she pushed open the door of the study on the third floor, which had been rearranged, and what caught her eye was a huge map. All the places she's been to over the years have been marked and marked on all continents.
The magazines she's been on are laid out on the shelves, as well as the burnt CDs and clip art books, all neatly arranged by date. She took it out to read, and some brief interviews that she could not remember were still properly stored by that person.
When she was eighteen years old, she asked that boy to watch his catwalk, and he agreed, and he did it every time after that.
Bu Nan sat down by the window and found their only group photo from the mezzanine. The young man beside her is noble and quiet, as beautiful as a plain white magnolia, with the words on the back of the photo: I can't help it.
When she was nineteen, she asked the boy what that kiss was. Now that he finally gave the answer, he couldn't help it.
It was still raining in Jiuxi, pattering, endlessly, the pattern tattooed on her shoulder was burning like a burning pain.
The sycamore tree, the three more rains, the unreasonable separation is bitter.
A leaf, a sound, the sky drops to the bright.
Last updated: October 7, 2022